i can't believe it

Is this really happening to me? or were they just saying that to me.. Please not be true.. Thinking that it may be true is just killing me inside,me not seeing them outside of the regular hours : ( I mean they are great people to be with and not pressuring me to do something I don't want to do.. We all share the same love and dedication towards our passion. We work all together to make things happen.. I know what they did was not the right decision but I was smart enough not to do it.. It is what they do not me.. Once you said " They are not the right group of friends to hang out with" and "I don't want you to hang out with them outside of the studio" it hit me so hard, it felt like a part of me was taken away and would be difficult to get back..