just can't believe it

Lately, it seems like I've been asking my parents for money more then usually. My parents also have been doing my application form for next year. With the last year of highschool being right around the corner it has been more a litle bit more then usual for school. Extra payments like graduation fee, activity fee, encounter fee, and grad sweaters. I feel so bad for my parents paying all these things for me. Even for my debut, they know I want to have one and with out me even knowing they have started planning it. Just other day I was talking to my mom about it and where I should have it and she says that my dad wants me to have it outside at a golf course. Now that would be pretty nice, it would be summer time : ) . For the next expense that I feel like I would have to help pay for sure would be next years choir trip. Apparently, the choir will be going to Paris, London, and maybe Portugal? I mean that will be hella expensive. This Europe trip would be just for my class in choir and people who are in chamber. It would be like a grad trip I guess since most of the people are in choir. That is pretty crazy going to Paris, London and maybe even Portugal!?! and going with people in my class, that is unbelievable. My parents even want to go to the philippines once I graduate for my cousins wedding + college!?! shoot with the economy and everything I actually think that my family will be broke at one point. I think to help my parents out maybe I could give up dance? I mean just for next year? I would be saving them 170*10=1700 woow that is a lot I never realized how much my parents spent on my dance. I really don't want to give up dancing at dream from a year, but if its my only option just to help my parents financially then I guess I will just have too..But for now my first priorty for this is to save as much as I can. Once I arrive back from oregon I will have to start saving up for everything that will happen and work as much as I can during the summer and maybe even get two jobs? So I just got to save+work ..
but hopefully everything will work out.

catch up

jeeez, I haven't wrote on here for a while.. First week after week spring break wasn't that bad. Their would be days were it would go by fast and other slow. So for the last week I have been trying to get my parents to give me a ride to places since i lost my bus pass and go-card=/ .. and i actually liked my picture on my go-card.. Its a good thing I didn't lose it during march. Yesterday were the company auditions. The experience made my heart beat so fast, I was so scared. Since we had 15 mins to learn the routine, 5 mins to go over it? I think then we all had to go to the small studio and wait to get called. While waiting I went through it since I didn't get parts of it. The first group got called and i was in it, my heart started beating really fast. They wanted us to do the routine then free style. After the first time getting called, I got called to come in again twice after. During the last time getting called I got asked questions and what not. Now I just go to wait to see if i got in or not .. =/